kingnharmonia:

-N nodded slowly as Silver spoke, feeling as if he understood his words more than he realized. The truth in them was obvious to him, but he almost felt connected to them… How exactly, N wasn’t certain, but he still felt something familiar about that description… Those thoughts left his mind as the red-haired boy spoke again, however.-

-The words stung, and N just stared and listened to them. After taking a few moments to process them, the man let out a soft exhale through his nose and smiled softly as he tossed that slight hurt aside. This was Silver, after all. He should’ve expected that. It really had been too long since N last spoke with him.-

I assure you my intent is not to confuse you. And I don’t consider speaking with you as a waste of time. Yes, I have been rather busy, and it’s caused me to neglect keeping in touch with others…but that does not mean that I can’t take the time to talk to you. I shouldn’t have let my social activity plummet like that in the first place. It’s inexcusable at this point.

…I can’t promise that I’ll be in touch frequently, but I’ll do what I can to speak with you when I am able. I didn’t plan to make it seem that I left you, nor do I wish for that to happen. I haven’t forgotten about you, and I often wonder how you are doing since we haven’t been in touch. And it feels nice speaking with you again after so long. So please don’t assume that I’m ignoring you if I don’t contact you after a while, because that is most certainly not the case, Silver.

Silver scoffed quietly to the words, shoving his gloved hands into his pockets as he listened to the king. Really, all he heard was a bunch of excuses he didn’t want to deal with anymore. That’s all he was ever told– by Gold, Crystal, even his own older sister figure, Blue. He was just tired of being alone, and if he was going to be alone then he should’ve been aware of it completely instead of being led on by words like this that only ended up being lies in the end as he sat day after day all alone just hoping and wishing they would come back eventually and talk to him. That wish in itself was rather stupid and contradictory now that he thought about it, since as soon as he was talking to someone he was as cold as ever and didn’t talk much. It was a stupid thing to be worried or possibly be even irritated or sad about in the end, and that in turn only made the heir feel foolish and decide for a change of plans. He wasn’t going to bother with any of this anymore and was just going to quit. Cowardly, perhaps, but he didn’t really care as long as he wouldn’t be kept waiting anymore than he already had been.

“I don’t think I feel inclined to care anymore if people are thinking about me or not.” His words were quick, cold, and sharp. Mercury optics were focused on the ground, narrowing a bit in growing irritation by the second as he spoke. Ugh, such a topic clearly wasn’t the best thing for him at all and this all needed to be stopped. “No one’s coming back, only when it’s leisure for them and when I happen to be doing something and I’m not going to wait around forever when they never end up coming back in the end, and if anything it’s only a day. I’d much rather isolate myself than wait around for their convenience.”

“That being said N– I have nothing against you, definitely– but I don’t want people to talk to me for a bit and therefore I think you should come back when you’re officially not busy.” That was going to go for everyone, and perhaps he’d take a break himself and disappear again. Really, no one was going to notice or care anyway what with how much he had been wandering alone with only his pokemon. Not even his own father contacted him for Arceus’ sake. “This goes for the other people I’m close to as well. Are we clear when I say that, N?”

(Source: rocketheir-blog)